Why is it that every time I feel extremely happy, like I am in so much bliss, something happens and the feeling is gone in an instant? 
Well, not really in an instant, but the point is… the reason why I am happy has been taken away from me- a day after it had been revealed. 
Last Thursday, I got an email from our HR scheduler about my deployment. Actually, I am really excited about being deployed immediately (because of a personal reason) but what even boosted my excitement is the project that I would be part of. Well, it’s a big project and as a newbie in the industry, I would gain a lot of experience there. I wasn’t the only one who got the email. Five of my co-trainees also received the same email. Of course, we were all excited and happy because of the project. We were supposed to start on Monday.
Unfortunately, Friday afternoon (the next day)… we received an email from someone else in the HR Department saying that we need to disregard the previous email and we should wait for the updates of our next deployment. It totally sucked all the happiness in me. I mean, what the hell?!?! 
We were not even informed why they took it back. We were left clueless. 
I was really upset and frustrated. 
First, my parents were really happy when they learned about the news last Thursday but then I had to take it back last night. I was really embarrassed. Second, I thought I would be free from this person, but I will still be stuck with this person. Third, I was praying to be deployed in the same area, different building but now… I am really wishing to be deployed somewhere else. /sigh
The universe hates me. I know. 
8 Comments on “It’s not fair”
nancy @ 05-09-2010 - 07:11
the universe doesnt hate you. stay strong and dont lose hope :)! it isnt fair that you werent told the reason of the disregard letter- since it is about you. you should have the right to know :O!!!
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Michaela @ 05-09-2010 - 09:00
It’s the same way with me, actually. I can get only a moments happiness. First I’m raped from age 8-15 by my Mom’s boyfriend, then my boyfriend saves me, then my Mom starts seeing my rapist again behind my back, then I learn to accept that she’ll never changed, then my grandmother gets cancer.
I’m stuck in the ‘bad moments’ part right now.
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JHEN @ 05-09-2010 - 12:34
it sucks! why did they do that without any reasons ? urgh! they just made you taste happiness for a while! urgh! don’t ya worry em sure you could find another one or maybe next time it’s really for sure 
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Kitty @ 05-09-2010 - 14:22
Oh dear Luna, the universe doesn’t hate you *hugs*. Such is the wheel of life. One moment you’re up there and the next moment you’re in the pit. But it doesn’t mean you can’t rise up again.
It sucks that they took it back after dispatching the emails. They should’ve been more careful before deciding on emailing you guys.
It wasn’t your fault at all so I’m sure your parents will understand. 
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Kelsey @ 05-09-2010 - 14:28
Oh, wow that’s horrible! I don’t know what I would do if something so exciting was taken away from me. Don’t lose hope though! I’m sure you’ll get something in the near future you won’t expect. Don’t let this bring you down; if you show eagerness and determination, something is bound to come up soon.
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Chiui @ 06-09-2010 - 02:08
Naww *hugs* Paasa sila -_- I hope you feel better! Sometimes I experience those things, too, especially now that we’re moving and my parents keep changing minds. One moment I like the decisions that they make, the next minute they’d change it, I’m disappointed. Darn
Anyway, I hope you’d get mooore blessings (that won’t spoil/be taken away) these days! 
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Nnie @ 07-09-2010 - 08:19
Aww, the universe doesn’t hate you chin up and stay strong, I’m sure you’ll get better soon and more happy things will be coming to you <3 It happens to me sometimes, and really, that is one of the worst mistakes I've ever encountered ever (possibly one of the worst mistakes that a human can do, being indecisive in an extreme way if you get what I mean?). They should avoid that kind of mistake.
I agree, traveling is really relaxing Nice to get away from things in the busy city and relax for a while. Japan and Korea, I've heard from a lot of people that they're great. Europe is definitely a great place.
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OMG Luna! Don’t feel like the universe hates you. I know things can feel that way especially when things start going your way and then it’s taken away. But just think, it could have been worse. It isn’t the end of the world and you haven’t completely lost anything.
Still, I am quite angry at that mistake. That mistake was one that could be avoided. You got an email about it, and it could definitely have been avoided. I’m not too clear on the situation of deployment… but basically, I feel it’s such a definite decision and for them to have made a big mistake like that left you really crushed. *hugs* Hopefully the next deployment will be soon.
After all, it was a group of you who were in this predicament. At least you weren’t the only one (so you wouldn’t think it’s something against you :)).
I’m sure your parents understand! *hugs* They should be sharing rage with you!
PS. I definitely won’t lose faith with kids! I do want kids of my own some day, I just hope that girl will gain some manners and her parents teach her properly! Not all kids are like that. And the nice ones really do make my day.
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