Why is it that every time I feel extremely happy, like I am in so much bliss, something happens and the feeling is gone in an instant? Well, not really in an instant, but the point is… the reason why I am happy has been taken away from me- a day after it had been revealed.

Last Thursday, I got an email from our HR scheduler about my deployment. Actually, I am really excited about being deployed immediately (because of a personal reason) but what even boosted my excitement is the project that I would be part of. Well, it’s a big project and as a newbie in the industry, I would gain a lot of experience there. I wasn’t the only one who got the email. Five of my co-trainees also received the same email. Of course, we were all excited and happy because of the project. We were supposed to start on Monday.

Unfortunately, Friday afternoon (the next day)… we received an email from someone else in the HR Department saying that we need to disregard the previous email and we should wait for the updates of our next deployment. It totally sucked all the happiness in me. I mean, what the hell?!?! We were not even informed why they took it back. We were left clueless.

I was really upset and frustrated. First, my parents were really happy when they learned about the news last Thursday but then I had to take it back last night. I was really embarrassed. Second, I thought I would be free from this person, but I will still be stuck with this person. Third, I was praying to be deployed in the same area, different building but now… I am really wishing to be deployed somewhere else. /sigh

The universe hates me. I know.

I lost my coin purse this afternoon. I forgot where I put it after I bought an ice scramble in a stall in the mall. I’ve just realized it minutes after and it sucked when I went to the stall again and saw that it wasn’t there anymore. I am so forgetful, careless and irresponsible. /fail

I accompanied my sister today. She went to the mall to buy a new phone for herself and she bought the Nokia 5030 XpressRadio. Haha. She didn’t really splurge on buying because she is waiting for my current phone. She knows that I’ll give it to her once I purchase a new one (maybe in December, rofl ).

I bought a new casing for Kyohei (my iPod touch) but I forgot to buy a new screen protector for him. D:

I didn’t really splurge today. I am saving for the rainy days. Maybe next payday…. we’ll see. *coughsNEWBAGPLZcoughs*

I forgot to bring my phone to work today. Even my umbrella. /facepalms I am just glad that it didn’t rain this afternoon. Heavy rain yesterday. I had to wade across our flooded street when I came home from work.

I felt so incomplete and bored because I left my phone. It’s a part of me already. If I had to be late, I have to text my team lead and my instructors. I also need to text him. I also surf the internet, tweet and plurk using my phone (because we’re not allowed to surf other sites). I felt like I wasn’t myself this morning because I left an important part of me, haha. I apologize if I sound so exaggerated.. but seriously, I feel so stupid for not putting it inside my bag immediately after I finished preparing for work. I hate how I am so forgetful at times. Aaahh…. Now, he keeps on teasing me about it. Darn it!

Anyway, I already started my HSP training yesterday. I hope I can get to finish it before I get deployed to a project. I am just happy that I am in an awesome batch. It’s fun to learn and work with people that are awesome. We’re a family already and I’ll definitely miss them when this training ends.